some things in the next few months:

• FIND A JOB
• china travels (Apr 13-28)
• berlin/amsterdam travels (May 5-12)
• graduation commencement (May 18-24)
• move to sf (?)

Blessed

I haven't written in a while because I've really had nothing much to say lately. But I've been thinking for the most of today about how blessed I am to live the life that I do. I couldn't have asked for more selfless parents and constant support in everything I do. I've never had to contribute to a single thing at home in my life yet I receive so much. I've been given so many opportunities in life and so many things because my parents want me to be the best me that I could be. I know I don't deserve it yet I don't yet have the abilities to repay my parents for the things they've provided me since birth. I am so, so lucky.

i've lied to myself all my life
i do
i hold grudges like no other
forgive but never forget.

lol

Happy March;
I'm trying hard not to think about having to move away and leave all my friends.
I hate to think that moving away is largely because I don't think I can afford my way around this city. Especially when I am constantly surrounded with investment bankers and corporate financiers. I start to doubt my education and my career path. Did I do the wrong thing by not trying hard enough with finance?
But I want to believe that I'm moving away because there's something bigger and better out there - something that's also more affordable in this lifetime.

I'm nervous and excited at the same time. 7 months. Should I be giving myself that amount of time as well? Then why am I not having fun?