I spent the month of October learning and growing. I learned that I didn't have to waste energy or time on someone who didn't deserve it. I didn't need another person in my life to make myself happy. And I could definitely do better than chasing pavements. I shouldn't have to invest myself into something that probably will never amount to anything. I also need to start pulling myself out of feelings before I allow myself to be consumed by them. Thanks to my good for nothing addictive personality, I really need to start watching myself. No person is worthy of this much pain and misery.